It has been a while since I last sat down in front of the computer. My darling girl (“Baby C”) has arrived and the past 2 months have been EXHAUSTING. We welcomed her a week earlier than expected due to low amniotic fluid, but she was born all strong and healthy!
When I was expecting Baby C, I had a vision of what my maternity leave would be like – besides caring for the baby, I would have the time to exercise, bake, blog, meet my fellow mommy girlfriends, etc. After all, this is my 2nd kid and things should be easier right? Well, I was way wrong. Having to manage a baby and a toddler at the same time, notwithstanding that the latter is already in full-day childcare, is definitely not an easy task, especially at night.
Small C dotes on his little sister a lot and I am so thankful for that. He doesn’t get jealous when I carry the baby and he understands that I am her food supply. But the only problem is that he still wakes up a few times at night, and he will start to wail if he doesn’t see me beside him (and that is because I have to sneak to the sister’s room to nurse her). So instead of sleeping with the baby, I have to shuffle between the two rooms every night. As much as I would like to rest in the day when small C is in school, the baby demands 24-7 attention and it is impossible for me to fall asleep while carrying her. In fact, I am carrying her now and typing this with my other free hand.
Unfortunately, Small C was down with several episodes of cold lately, and the baby sister had contracted the virus despite our attempts to separate them as much as possible. She had to be hospitalized at 6 weeks old for bronchiolitis – the story will be shared in a separate post later. Sigh.
So I have used up more than half of my maternity leave and I have yet to achieve any of the “extra” activities that I was hoping to engage in. Admittedly there were days I felt so overwhelmed that I broke down in frustration, particularly on days when Baby C couldn’t seem to stop crying no matter what I do. “This soon shall pass” is what kept me going and things are definitely looking better now. Baby C seems to be over the “peak” of crying (apparently this is part of the normal development phase), and more importantly, she has recovered from her illness and her weight gain is back on track. She has been smiling a lot lately, and her cuteness is AWWWWWWWWWWW… Now I can’t wait for her to be a bit older and we can resume our family outings on weekends!